About Me

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Welcome! I’m Sonya.

I’m a daughter of an immigrant mother, a product of a loving but remarkably conservative childhood, and became a motherless daughter at age 18.  I married at twenty (still married!), started my career as a Burn/Trauma ICU nurse (a job solidifying me as an all-time winner of Grossest Dinner Party Story), and stood by helplessly when my husband had brain surgery a month after we moved to the DC area.

We started a family a few years later, and after three kids, I am finally at a place where I can take a deep breath (although I still cannot go to the bathroom without an interruption).

I have loved Jesus most of my life, but only recently started to understand His profound love for me.

 

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(One of the best birthday gifts of all time – fake sleeves. The tattoo ship has sailed, but I love the way they look!)

I often wonder what my journey of womanhood and motherhood would be like if I knew what my mom thought about a certain subject or situation.  The desire to write has been on my heart for over a decade. (Am I really that old?)  And it’s only intensified as my daughter gets older and I inevitably wonder “how much time do I have left?”

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(My brother and I, in our mother’s arms).

Fear (of what people would say, of not wanting to fail, of not being a good writer) prevented me from starting, yet I couldn’t ignore this ache to share my heart. It’s a longer story (you can read about it here and here), but I basically dared myself to audition for DC’s Listen To Your Mother 2015 show — where authors read their original essays about motherhood in front of a live audience. I figured, if I get it, I’ll start to write. If I don’t, no one has to know.

I made it in, and this blog started shortly afterwards.

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I feel like I have a lot of cracks. I feel like I’ve been broken.

I also feel whole and complete and want to be used. I want to be full to overflowing. Spilling over.

 

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Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.  Ephesians 3:17-19

11 Comments

  1. Sonya, I always knew how special and unique a person you are, and now I know what an amazing writer you are! (Like your dad!) I am so glad that I got to know your mom well enough to know that she would be immensely proud of you and the person you have become! There is no doubt about that! I am also very grateful for the close friendship you and my daughter share. So glad that two amazing woman have each other to share their lives with. Love you!

  2. Hi Sonya
    I came to this page after Laurie posted your picture on FB today and thought I’d read a bit about you and what you’ve been up to since high school. God bless you and may you continue to be successful!

    (Allison Urbach)

  3. Oh, I’ve been staying up late and reading your stuff, here and on Mom babble, with the not volunteering, and I just have so much in common with you. But my heart really goes out to you about your mom. I do still have mine, but what a profound thing it is to lose your mom. We are DC’ers too, but we are exiled to California for two years for grad school. I still have post traffic stress disorder, so i cannot handle the way these people freely honk for fun….but now I’m rambling. Just wanted to say, I’m excited to have discovered your blog, can’t wait to read more, hope we can be blog friends, and yes, I realize I sound like such a geek.

    • April! You are so nice to write and comment! Glad to know we are on common ground and love the idea of being blog friends. Welcome, so happy you’re here 🙂

  4. Wow. I am blown away by your words and your strength! I’m the art director for coffee and crumbs and I love to read our women’s journeys. YOURS is incredible. Thank you for sharing! I too, have been scared to share in the past, and my personal blog is launching this month 😀 Keep up the amazing God spun work!

    • Ashley. Is it weird to say I’m honored that you visited my blog? 🙂 Thank you for reading and commenting… I so appreciate your encouragement. I hope we have a chance to get to know each other better!

  5. Thanks for your blog. I felt like God just led me here. I still have my mother, by God’s grace, but she is sick and I was JUST praying about my fears of losing her. She is in good health now but we never know what tomorrow will bring. I can’t wait to read more of your experience. I can tell already that it’s an answer to my prayer. Thanks for trusting God. God bless you and your family. May people see Jesus through your words.

    P.S.- Put it down was a great article. A reminder to all us moms, wives, and women with responsibilities outside ourselves.

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