Welcome! I’m Sonya.
I’m a daughter of an immigrant mother, a product of a loving but remarkably conservative childhood, and became a motherless daughter at age 18. I married at twenty (still married!), started my career as a Burn/Trauma ICU nurse (a job solidifying me as an all-time winner of Grossest Dinner Party Story), and stood by helplessly when my husband had brain surgery a month after we moved to the DC area.
We started a family a few years later, and after three kids, I am finally at a place where I can take a deep breath (although I still cannot go to the bathroom without an interruption).
I have loved Jesus most of my life, but only recently started to understand His profound love for me.
(One of the best birthday gifts of all time – fake sleeves. The tattoo ship has sailed, but I love the way they look!)
I often wonder what my journey of womanhood and motherhood would be like if I knew what my mom thought about a certain subject or situation. The desire to write has been on my heart for over a decade. (Am I really that old?) And it’s only intensified as my daughter gets older and I inevitably wonder “how much time do I have left?”
(My brother and I, in our mother’s arms).
Fear (of what people would say, of not wanting to fail, of not being a good writer) prevented me from starting, yet I couldn’t ignore this ache to share my heart. It’s a longer story (you can read about it here and here), but I basically dared myself to audition for DC’s Listen To Your Mother 2015 show — where authors read their original essays about motherhood in front of a live audience. I figured, if I get it, I’ll start to write. If I don’t, no one has to know.
I made it in, and this blog started shortly afterwards.
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I feel like I have a lot of cracks. I feel like I’ve been broken.
I also feel whole and complete and want to be used. I want to be full to overflowing. Spilling over.
Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Ephesians 3:17-19